I'm alive guys. I no longer have the flue. I am back from the cruise. Let's start this story from the top.
So, I started talking to boy who doesn't have Tada's last name (which we are going to start calling him Oreo, it was my brother's idea to call him that). And to be honest, no I have not forgotten about the boy. The boy only talks to me in a blue moon. I think it is destiny that we just stay friends. So just so we are clear, I am dropping feelings for the boy. We are just friends. It's better that way.
So when I got sick and missed class one day, Oreo messaged me letting me know there was going to be a test in the class next class period. After that, we just started talking.
I talked to him all the time, even when I was on the ship (when I had a connection). There is not much to tell about the trip besides I missed my friends and this new friend who took far more interest in me than the boy ever did. I talk to Oreo now just about when I wake up till when I go to bed (since he never sleeps, so I always end up going to bed first). I enjoy having him around. I can say stupid fan girl stuff and he fan girls with me sometimes.
So on Valentines day, my french friend, we will call her Frenchy, invited me to a dance at her college. So we got all dressed up. And Frenchy was all like "Invite Oreo!" So I did, not expecting him to actually come. He messages me back telling me he has to get ready but will come. I think my heart stopped. So, Frenchy's friends, Frenchy, and I go down to the dance while he is headed that way. It was lame and Frenchy ended up being asked to go to this bar/club to go dance. She declined it because she didn't want to leave me and Oreo was still on his way there. So, we meet up with Oreo as we are walking out of the dorm. I was really confused but we all ended up going to the club/bar and I didn't have my ID or wallet. So I had to go back to the dorms and get it. Oreo kindly came with me. It is so easy to talk to him too. So we get back to the club/bar and find out that it is weird music. We both look at each other and was like "Oh...this is weird..." So I suggested we go sit down. The night was fun just talking to him. And so here we are today.
I had to stay after class to make up the tests we had. I had to stay like 45 minutes after class, and this class is a night class anyway so it was close to 9 P.M. when I made it out of the room. I walked down and to the front of the building I was in only to find Oreo waiting. He happily walked me out to my car and asked me about my tests(he tried assuring me I did well). And then we started our conversation back up when he got back home. Life is kind of good right now. We made plans to meet up for Naka-kon weekend, to go to this underground rave, and to go to warped tour together. If he had the money, I would ask him to go to Excision but he told me he just bought a new keyboard and was low on money. So I didn't ask him. It will be okay, I will still have fun.
Ps: I think it has been almost two months since I have cut. Let's keep this good track going.
Smile and try to be happy my lovelies
Roki~~
So you're over the boy?? Wow! Haha well it's good that you're still friends. Friendship is very important to have:P oh, and congrats on the two months since cutting thing!! Continue that on:) wish I could say the same tho...its bin an almost everyday thing for me(and just between us , I almost committed suicide…) but I'm fine, I'm still here:) I'm surviving and I'm happy for you^_^
ReplyDeleteI didnt think i would get over the boy too lol but i realized he is kind of only keeping me as an option and not more than a friend so we can be just friends. thank you, i hope you start to find the joy in life. if it mskes a difference, I enjoy reading your comments and hope you keep surviving ^_^ its tough out there but you can talk to me if you need to and if it will help.
DeleteOh I see…oh, and thanx, i really do appreciate it. It's nice talk to someone that actually listens^_^ I'm trying to survive, I really am, its just…UGH! Hahaha idk how to explain it, its just ugh! XD But yeh, thanx for your kind words(*^o^*)
ReplyDeletesometime to just know someone even though we are strangers cares is just enough ^_^ im more than willing to hear about anything just let me know!
DeleteHaha thanx, a lot. It really does mean a lot coming from someone I met online, while the people around me never say that^^ and of course I'm here to listen to you whenever you need it:P and speaking of which, I hope things are going good for you! Seems like 5ever since we've spoken xD
DeleteThanks! I know, Im so busy even though its spring break xD i hope you are doing well though!
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