rule one: dont believe anyones promises
rule two: everyone WILL leave you. face it now so u dont feel too bad later. embrace solitude.

Talk won't work this out, I don't need to share, I just need to scream

I can't take it. She acts like "poor me." but you go and pull this fucking shit! Its not poor me if you do pot when you use to be my straight edge buddy. What happen to your love of Gerard like I have, and your consious would be "What would Davey(A.F.I.) say if i were to do drugs or drink. god, he would be disappointed." Where did that go? It went down a drain for a fucking boy? Really? And you throw me, your best friend who had been there for you since we were fucking kids.you throw our promise to never leave each other on this earth alone. WE HAVE A FUCKING PACK TO NEVER KILL OURSELVES AND LEAVE ONE ALL ALONE TO DEAL WITH THE WORLD BUT YOU ARE READY TO GIVE IT ALL AWAY FOR ONE FUCKING BOY AND WEED!
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Then the friendship i thought we had is an illusion...I believed so dearly and close to my heart that you would never throw me to the side like a rag doll like others have done but you are no different. You are willing to leave me just like my mom left me, just as my brother left me, and just as all the others.
Maybe i'm not meant to be with people...i knew the weed would change you but I hoped so much I wouldn't lose you as I am losing my grandma, our grandma, but its just like when the alzheimer's kicked in, my grandmother began to change, she didn't act like herself and now the weed has become your alzheimer's. you don't believe it messes with your thinking but my friend told me how he couldn't reason straight on that shit.

YOU'RE OUT OF YOUR FUCKING MIND!

I'll never tell you how I have my life writen on my arm in red scars when you think that your life is so pathetic and so sad. You didn't have to grow up at age 16 to be an adult because your mother couldn't! you never had it hard. i know because i protected you from the world all these years. and this is how you repay me. telling me everything i thought was, no--what i made into a religion, is dumb and that you don't even remember our promise. the one i held onto when I was in my darkest day. I deal with you and depression along with anxeity while you deal with not getting this one guy who you won't ask out so you don't know if you have a chance or not even! I've lost everything with you. You were my concert buddy, my rock, my comic buddy, my anime buddy, my shopping buddy.
You were my partner in crime.
You where going to move in with me but now I question my friendship with you at all.
It hurts, alot, thanks for asking buddy~

~A very hurt and broken Roki~


Listening to: Scream If You're Crazy By D.R.U.G.S.

For The MAD Family

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